Miss Piggy

Yes, sadly I am referring to myself. I can't say my weight because I haven't been on the scale for a few days. Friday was my anniversary so I used it to as an excuse to be a disgusting pig, and stuff unhealthy food in my mouth. It's moments like this where I hate myself so much. I hate the complete and utter loss of control. I know losing weight is important to me. I am ashamed of how I look right now, and want to change. Sadly, I frequently lose sight of this which is when I hate myself the most.

There is a little bird that is always flying at the window at the back of our house. She taps with her beak, and then sits on the window sill looking into the house. She does it every day. What is she looking at? I use to think it was her reflection, but I am starting to doubt that. Not to be overly philosophical, but I can really relate to wanting something so bad that you have the same routine day after day. Unfortunately, even that little bird has more will power then myself.

So, no self loathing without a new plan. The new plan is juice diet for today and likely tomorrow. On Tuesday will probably do some solids, but plan to keep it very low cal. I bought these really great protein shakes. They are 110 calories per box, but have a ton of protein so you won't be starving.